ummm, what now?

There is a conundrum ( ah! have always wanted to use that word) or maybe a basic flaw in reasoning. Since I was little, like 15 years old, marriage was not on the agenda for me till I was old. Well, old then meant the matronly age of 30. Marriage was also not on the charts without the correct reason, "love". A reason that I can now at best describe as an unverified Twitter account. Potentially fake yet fascinating.

Which brings me to now, at the above mentioned 'matronly' age, and no fascinating verified or unverified account in the picture, leading me to the current top most dilemma of my life. How do I reconcile the fact that although there is no love, I feel as though its time to let go of the red asterisk on the box of love to enable registering myself in this every growing community of married people (who btw are everywhere like a virus) ? Long question right!

Lets assume, we reconcile facts, ignore them, or just screw the thought process, and decide to go ahead with the registration. (yes, that's how I see it, we register to get married, like any website, and become members of this closed door community). Since the tell tale signs of accelerated heartbeats, spontaneous arguments and starry eyed fixation won't be there to guide ( or misguide), how on earth will I hone on to my partner in crime. ( Yes, I also thinks its criminal to get married, living together in an emotional prison cell of sorts)

I am also concerned about my partners potential enrollment into other communities post marriage, such as the adulterous bastard community, the i am a slob community, the i have no romantic bone in my body community, amongst others.

There is no conclusion. There is no rationality, as inspite of so many arguments against it, I am suddenly quite okay with the idea of clicking 'register me'. Eeeeks !!!